Today I sat down to write. I thought of all the things I’d been wanting to tell you: things like what natural remedies I used to cure mastitis, how I’m doing on my new year’s resolutions, and that I finally figured out how to make a roast beef taste really good.
I tried to write, but I just couldn’t. The words became a blur on the page rather than something meaningful, and I thought, how could I? How could I write about these things while Christians are being brutally crucified and beheaded in Iraq, women are raped and sold into slavery, children in India are lucky to survive on one meal a day, and here in the US babies are torn apart from their mother’s wombs and left to die. I know of a woman who has been at her husband’s bedside after a fall off a roof for a whole year now, still hoping that he might walk again. I know of another woman who has watched her precious son receive cancer treatment after cancer treatment, only to be told after numerous infections that the tumor has still not shrunk.
I thought about how I’d like to help all of those people. I wished we had more money to give away. I started thinking about what I could do to make extra money to give to those needs. A fundraiser maybe? Anything . . . Then a voice inside spoke to me:
But, you do have money to give away. Weren’t you just talking about how you wanted to spend $150 on massages for your anniversary?
That got me to thinking. We eat out about once a month, spending $20-$30 usually. Sure, that’s not a large amount, but when you think about the little boy who has nothing to eat and how many meals that might provide for him, or how it takes $25 an hour to run a truck to share the truth about abortion, well, a little bit of money could go further than you think! Now, I’m not saying that it’s wrong to get a massage or go out and eat every now and then, just that what I might consider to be a “need,” might in fact really be more of a want. It’s all in how you want to think about things.
You see, God was pleased with the widows’ mite because she gave everything she had. Giving when we have excess is easy. But giving everything we have shows real love.
Think about this for a second. Has your relationship with God ever been characterized by completing a self-composed list of Biblical commands out of obligation? I know mine has. What would happen if we were all really motivated by love, rather than a sense of duty that merely results in trying to get as close to the perceived “line” of disobedience as we can?
How could we ever do enough for the One who has already given his all to save us? Love doesn’t ask, when have I done enough or how close can I get without actually sinning. Love asks, how can I give more?
The point of this post is not to make anyone, including myself, feel bad, nor to impart some nugget of wisdom. The truth is, I don’t know where to go from here. I just know that I’m feeling convicted and I want to change. I don’t want to listen to the word but not do what it says, “like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like” (James 1:23, 24).
What are your thoughts?
Mentioned in this post:
Gospel for Asia - Sponsor a child in India here
PUSH for Lucas Facebook page, Read his story/donate here (little boy fighting cancer)
Samaritan’s Purse - Provide help for displaced Iraqis fleeing the violence
Operation Rescue – Work to end abortion (also run the Truth Trucks); ways you can help
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